Tomorrow

I know that one day
I'll look back and I'll think
About my life now
As a thought from the past
It's distance though far
I'll be able to view
Like a bright Summer morning
Where the Sun greets the dew

And often I'll wonder
If things could have been done
To alter the life
Of my past present self
I'll sit and I'll think
As I ponder my days
Recalling my youth
In a black foggy haze

I know that one day
I'll grow to be old
Decrepit and weak
And ailing from age
I'll be Desperate to live
All the Spring days of my past
Just not the Winter
For those days are my last

I think now and on
That I'll cherish youth's gold
As I'll never retrieve
Yesterday, this I know
I'll breathe in the air
As my last knowing death
May come just as fast
As the release of my breath.

(When to) Let it Go

Just because you disagree...
...with every word I've said
...with every thing I've done
...with every step I've stepped

Just because you truly know...
...the way you feel is right
...the way I feel is wrong
...the way you do is best

Doesn't mean you have to keep...
...the grudge you've kept this long
...or care about some choice
...that's far beyond your grasp

Just because I chose the life...
...for me and no one else
...doesn't mean that it
...was a choice for you

Certainly you should live your life
...and learn to never care
For if your love of me is true
You wouldn't even dare.

Cast Down, with Desire

Wrap--yourself in plumes of silver smoke
And breathe the cinders of your plight.
Bleed--yourself where the water dressed the skin
In red, it'll be hurt...you'll leave behind.

Forgiveness is for those of us
Who resign to cowardice
And restrain the longings
Of the flesh
In bleak black eloquence
Once the chains are placed
The bondage of on our wills are crawling in
Lash the need, dissolve restriction
From the eighth deadly sin.

Drink--yourself in that lost and weary way
And forget the nights that were your last.
Feel--yourself in Pleasure's passion Pain
And don't forget the role that you were cast.

In shame covered distrust
All the life, that once was spoken
(That once was spoken...)
Has all but faded into the past...

...Towards the bottom of the glass
(The bottom of the glass...)

Forgive and Always Forget

It's often hard to inspect the thoughts
Or intentions of the Seas
Deep and vast between the Minds
Of all who live to be
The Dreamers of the cosmic Dreams
The Weavers of the Weave
Who sail upon the Ships of Stars
Beyond the Shores of the
Once sane and always bustling Ports
Where trade once always played
And peddled Lies to those who spoke
Of Truth as Hope once slain.

On Being a Leader - What it Means to Me

Being a leader doesn't mean you have to be friends with everyone you are in charge of.

It also doesn't mean that every decision you might make won't have opposition.

That's not to say you won't make an occasional bad decision--hey, it happens.

A leader isn't invincible.

They need help just like any other person.

A leader should do everything and nothing by them self.

A leader takes responsibility for themselves and others.

When things get tough, showing weakness means failure.

And when things are easy...well, things are never easy.

Being a leader means there is no "try."

It's only "do" and when you "do," you "do" it well.

Being a leader means putting trust into those who follow you.

And giving dissidents enough rope to hang.

Rain

Sometimes it rains
When it isn't supposed to
And today was indeed
One of those days.

Sometimes it pours
When you least expect
And today was indeed
Just one of those days.

I'll Always Miss You

To my loving Dog:

There’s no one in the World

Who I love more than you…

For I know that it’s true,

That you love me too

And I’m speechless to hear

That you may be leaving soon

There’s no one in the World

Who I love more than you…

I recall at when we first had met

And all the years I’ll never forget

You were there in my most difficult times

Through the rain, and snow, or when the Sun had shined

It’s no doubt that you loved me so

Your love was more than unconditional, I know.

I dread the day I’ll have to wave goodbye

And that you’ll always keep a watchful eye

On me, your friend for always and more

I love you so much

‘Til my heart beats sore.

There’s no one in the World

Who I love more than you…

For I know that it’s true,

That you love me too

And I’m speechless to hear

That you may be leaving soon

There’s no one in the World

Who I love more than you…

Honesty

Here's some more lyrics I've been working on for my concept album. A little cheesy but I'm going for some epic-ness in the music so I need highly emotional lyrics (notemo). >.>

Honesty

You may not believe

That what I am about to say

Are indeed the facts

Or that there was anyway to tell

That those before me

Were to blame

For what is to come

Out of all of this.

I know that

In your eyes

There's no telling

As to how this could possibly end

But I assure you that

I've known for so long

Known for so long

That this day would come.

I'm not asking you to understand

That this is indeed who I am

I'm not asking you to understand

That this is alone, is my decision

To erase myself

And die...

By my own hand.

Reprisal/God's A Fool

Okay so I'm writing lyrics for a set of new songs I'm working on and I feel like posting a couple so check it out! They are for a concept album I plan to do in the future...ANYWAY, enjoy if you're into this kind of thing.

Reprisal

Will I wake up tomorrow?

Well, that’s really a question if I want to live

Or give myself up—Yeah, I’d rather die

I’m so tired of running…

How long has it been?

Probably fifteen years or more

I think it’s time to stop being a fugitive

From myself…

From them…

And the rest of the World

I think it’s time to finally do something about this

And murder all of my fears

I think it’s time to make my stand

Or die trying.

God’s a Fool

If it was up to me this would’ve been over years ago

I’m sure of it

Though I often wonder

Did I ever have any control?

No, I never did…

Why am I even here?

This isn’t how it was meant to be

I should’ve been someone somewhere else

A person who isn’t me.

Freedom from Deceit

Oh Lord, it is you
To whom I beseech--
My every breath and living step
Are yours should you so choose

Take my Soul into the infinities
So I may see the Beyond
Even if I may ignite...
Or burst into flames
Even if I burn to ash...
And cease to be.

Oh Lord, it is you
To whom I beseech--
Take my Soul into the infinities
So I may see the Beyond.

Wake

I have become as Death
Forgive me...
For my Heart is devoid of emotion
Am I the cause...
Am I the cause...
Of all our Pains?
Or have I made my own the World's?

It has, it was, so difficult
To Love
How could I ever think...
To overcome
This swollen Hurt?
How could I ever think...
To sever
my Disdain?

I sometimes wonder
If I ever lived
The Life that was planned for me
Or did I transgress
The silent Decrees
Set forth to me
Before my Soul exhaled?

Where did I ever find the happiness to continue
Despite the harsh digression we were forced to take?

How did I ever learn
To even care?
Or was it only because
I knew...
I knew...
That you would
Never leave
That you would
No matter what
Forever and always
Be there.

It has, it was, so difficult
To Love
How could I ever think...
To overcome
This swollen Hurt?
How could I ever think...
To sever
my Disdain?

Perfection

Tonight the Sky was ours
Painting the intricate flames
With our every step
As that which lay hidden below
Buried itself through the mechanisms
Of rebirth.
Shall we be enriched?
Or forsaken by our ancestry in the aeon to come?
Brazen were we to think
Of ourselves so high...
As we mistook our very end
In forgetfulness.

Stew

I’m very quite uncertain
Just what the day may bring
Perhaps severe misfortune
Or a glowing Emerald ring
A friend of mine once said to me
A random world’s not dead
It’s far from fun to know the past
From the future where it led
Which makes me often wonder why
I really shouldn’t know
That one day this month suns will shine
And the others it will snow.

What I believe

I believe...
...that I am the keeper of my destiny.
...there is nothing I cannot accomplish.
...there is no force stronger on this earth than that of the human will.
...that I am worthy.
...that beauty transcends gender.
...that we are responsible for our children as our parents were for us.
...that for every bad person there is a good.
...that the worst abuse is psychological.
...in forgiveness.
...that we should be ourselves.

I believe...that Life is a test for us to fail...
...and that Death is its lesson.

I believe in Love.

This is what I believe.