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FFXI updates suck.

So...

...it's been over a week since I typed anything here. Call me lazy. I just got sidetracked with lolffxi, as soon as I got back from Mass my main priority was getting my DRK to 37 and I did in about three days (in fact, I got it to 38). In the meantime, I worked Thursday and Friday last week, did a few HNMs, and my first Tiamat on Saturday night as RDM/DRK! Was fun, we killed him in about 45 mins. Dropped D. Cloth and some Kote.

Been thinking about how my life is going and right now it's a very good but bad time. My transition will soon be in full swing when I move. My mom decided to let her boyfriend stay with us. It's the second person she's let come here, the first being my brother's girlfriend. I'm not trying to sound mean but I honestly don't see eye to eye on things with either of those people which causes me pretty much not to like them. Don't get me wrong I can bear with them, but I would never let them stay here.

Anywho, before I move up to Mass three things need to happen. One, my name change, which happens next Wednesday. Two, I need to find a job up where I'm going to be living. And three, the place where I'm staying needs to be completed. It's looking like it's going to be really nice, the house is freaking huge and evidently is haunted. There are offices in the lower part of the building and evidently it was made for ballroom dancing during the 1800s.

Site of the week: Ytmnd.com. Here's one that's full of lulz http://timetraveler.ytmnd.com/

My visit thus far....

So I made it to Massachusetts alive after being up for thirty hours straight, three planes, and a car ride. When I finally got to my uncle's house I ate some lunch and played guitar for about an hour and half. I passed out after that. When I woke up it was pitch black and my Uncle was telling me that we were going to go to dinner at a sushi joint in downtown Amherst. It was a nice little place, I really didn't order what I was in the mood for (curry) but it was okay and filled me up. I really need to get some pictures to show what kind of town Amherst is. I would describe it best as a college town, and extremely liberal. I really don't feel threatened at all here and I'm looking foward to my move here.

My uncle took me to the place I would be living, and let me tell you it's nicer than my house in Ohio! Like godly nice, it's really beyond belief I feel incredibly lucky and thankful. The house that the condo is in was actually some sort of dance hall during the 1800s.

I found out that the University down here gives a lot of benefits to their transgendered students, and I plan on meeting with someone down there on Tuesday afternoon to discuss with them exactly what I need to do to get into this program. I can finally get some health insurance if I get in, which will be nice considering I've had to pay for all of my transition costs out of my pocket.

I've done a lot of sleeping here needless to say, and let me tell you I've needed it traveling has been hard on my stomach and my appetite has gone down the hole. I went to this really nice restaurant today, I had tofu like I've never had it and it was really good. If there's one thing I have to say that is different about this place than Ohio it would be the food, there are a million more choices and everything (for the most part) is edible, asin not unhealthy to the point of causing a heart attack.

Been sort of depressed today I really need to find out what I want to do for an occupation. I want to play music badly. I'm not sure though if that will be something that is realistic or not whether I can do anything with a guitar or not. Eh....maybe it's not worth thinking about it'll just make me even more unhappy. I just wish I could get some sort of guidance and suggestions about what I should do. My family here in MA has done a great job in helping me, so maybe I should ask them more questions. Not only do I want to do something worthwhile and contribute to society instead of drain for what it's worth, but I want to be happy, I want to be myself, and I just want to be absolutely sure about the direction I am going in life (occupation-wise).

Packing for MA, FFXI happenings for the week

So right now, I'm packing my bags for Massachusetts. It's so hard to choose what to bring, but I definitely know I need some warm clothes. It's pretty cold here so I'm anticipating it to be a little more chilly in MA. Haven't gone to sleep yet, not sure I'm going to be able to. I've got about two hours before I have to leave the house so it's just not worth it. I mean I still have to get dressed and do some makeup, good thing my hair is already taken care of! I hope that I get a few things moving when I go up later today, I'm really looking forward to moving on with the next chapter of my life. Watching "Pumping Iron" right now, just in the background as something to keep me awake. It's an interesting movie to say the least, I'm not into to body building at all (obviously :P), I'm really watching it for all the lulz brought to you by the governator!~

Observe >.> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMjG2s6UOaw

If you've never seen that I'm sure you laughed, I know I did tonight when I first saw it!

FFXI has been really fun this week. I did a little bit of everything, Sea farming, Dynamis, Bahamut Version 2, and of course, leveling my gimp Dark Knight sub job. It's 25 now, and that's saying something considering that I've soloed most of it. I tried to solo Fenrir tonight RDM/NIN, he ate me on my first attempt, and I actually got him down to 15% on the second attempt before running out of time (so lame). Anyway, here's some pictures from this week in game of the fun I've had with my new LS the Foodmonsters, enjoy!

Sea Farming:


Dynamis - Bubu (Thank you FM for the win, finally!)


Tanked the entire party, thank god we had a PL:


Buffing up for Bahamut 2:


And the aftermath about 40 seconds later:


I is an Astonisher of Wyrms, didn't yous get the memos?

On :3 (random thought)

:3 is that which transcends all other emotes, because it is open-ended and ambiguous. I probably use :3 more than I should, but it's incredibly easy to use when you just don't have anything, well, better to say. I only wish I could use it with people I see face to face everyday, and I often wonder how one could express :3 with one's body language or face. In any case, here's some reactionary examples of just how incredibly useful :3 is.

Pretty :3


Cute :3


Didn't see this one coming. :3


I'll pass, thank you. :3


Uh :3


.....:3

I'm tired!

Good God. I am exhausted, but I absolutely don't feel like sleeping yet it's not even 10pm here. My day was pretty derivative but it wasn't bad by any means. Played some FFXI, went for a walk, and just, well, chilled for day. It was nice. I LOVE my new LS on Carbuncle everyone in it is very nice and I am having a great time. I really want to get my Dark Knight to 37 for my Red Mage (it's the only sub I don't have for it). I've been doing what I can to level it. I've had to solo quite a bit, but that doesn't bother me. I can go at my own pace and just zone if I want that way. Was in a party today with some RMT died probably about four times before I decided to leave. I'll get it to 37, I just have to be patient.

But yeah, I'm tired, and it's not even 10pm yet! Next Friday I'm going to visit Massachusetts. It's the beginning of the end and once I finally move away from Ohio I'm not coming back!

I really wish I had more to say tonight, but I'm just not that inspired. I'm planning on doing some shopping tomorrow, maybe I'll get all "gothed-out" something. I totally missed out on Halloween so I have to make it up!

Ten things you need to know about me

1. Music is the driving force in my life. I have a need to perform and create music. The more epic and depressing, the better.

2. I love my mom so much. I can't express how thankful I am to her for all the things she has done for me.

3. I don't like "wet" foods. That means if my food is swimming in grease, butter, salad dressing, fat, or whatever else might possibly make it "wet" it can GTFO. Oh, and I don't like Bacon or Beef so they can GTFO too. I drink only water.

4. I am a transexual woman. An MtF (Male-to-Female). I pass easily when I have the right attitude. I like men.

5. I love to read, but I get easily distracted or tired when I try and read for extended periods of time.

6. I need to learn how to throw things away. I am what many would call a "pack rat."

7. I am forgiving. Trust me--I never used to be forgiving, and I think the world is better place because of it.

8. I play Final Fantasy XI. I was originally from the Cerberus Server. I moved to Carbuncle earlier this week. My jobs to 75 are Black Mage, Red Mage, and Summoner.

9. I want to write a book before I die. A GOOD ONE!

10. I wear my sunglasses at night.

What I believe

I believe...
...that I am the keeper of my destiny.
...there is nothing I cannot accomplish.
...there is no force stronger on this earth than that of the human will.
...that I am worthy.
...that beauty transcends gender.
...that we are responsible for our children as our parents were for us.
...that for every bad person there is a good.
...that the worst abuse is psychological.
...in forgiveness.
...that we should be ourselves.

I believe...that Life is a test for us to fail...
...and that Death is its lesson.

I believe in Love.

This is what I believe.